Why hello, once again. Life just keeps getting better.. Steven “Weez” (bf), Evan (son), and I moved into a beautiful two bedroom apartment on January 4, 2013 to be exact. It’s been wonderful living with him, even during the few rough times; I cannot complain. I love waking up to the man I love and see spending the rest of my life with. I love being a family, raising Evan...
It’s been awhile since I last blogged. It’s been heavy on my mind to do so, but my lazy butt constantly pushed it aside to a later day, which now makes it today.. hence. Well well.. life has been treating me pretty dang AWESOME! I feel so humbled and blessed. No, things are not perfect.. they never are, of course.. that’s life! However, at the very start, a few positive changes...
Waking up in his arms. Island music. Bed to lie on. Three day weekend. Baby showers. Oprah. Detoxing unnecessary, selfish, pessimistic, superficial friends. Church on the hill. Most High. Food. Him cooking. Canyon Oaks. Work. Evan’s interest in learning new things. Health. Free things. Interest free. Him loving my true authentic self. Always making up. Never leaving upset. Understanding....
Today, when I came home, Evan was a riding his two-wheeler spiderman bike all by himself. He taught himself, as he watched his older cousins ride their bikes. I’m so glad I took his training wheels off a couple of months ago. He asked me to do so because he was embarrassed to be seen riding a bike with training wheels when seeing other kids riding without. I’m proud of that guy!...
Moment of Silence. Finally... SIKE!
I’m at home, resting. Finally, a moment of silence. Oh, it’s been crazy to say the least this last month and a half, yet still three more weeks to go. Working with over a hundred kids, then coming home to a full house (mom, dad, evan, ate r, her three kids, often el, ate and eddie, and lola the dog), I find myself going nuts, wanting my space! I am the type of person that seriously...
New Beginnings. Again.
Yay, mom surprised me with a new MAC PRO a few days ago! She is thee most generous woman ever, often too generous. I seriously can’t thank her enough. I truly appreciate such a grand gift! She continues to do sooo much, and I often don’t deserve it at all! I’m thankful to have a computer, especially after the other computers broke. I haven’t wrote in this in awhile, I have...
It's been awhile..
So, I’ve yet to keep update with this blogging site.. I write with the good ol’ pen and paper from time to time, but I could do better.. I need to be more consistent. Whenever I do get the chance and energy to write.. I remember how good it feels to do so.. Well well welll.. LIFE, I am happy to say I am at the tip of the “high” points. I have thee most wonderful boyfriend...
Thursday, July 28, 2011
I’ve decided to get rid of all forms of social networking, i.e. Facebook (for now at least.. we’ll see??), but keep and hopefully update fairly frequently my tumblr account. I still need to express myself some way. Sooo.. changes once again.. yet of course. I moved once again yesterday to (BD’s) sis Joy and Mike’s house yesterday. We’ll see how long I live here.....
I need to write. It’s been forever since I’ve done so, and I have so much bottled inside that needs to be released. Where do I begin? About two and a half months ago, I moved to Hawaii (Sunday, April 10, 2011 to be exact). What was supposed to be only a one week family/friend trip for ate and Eddie’s wedding vow renewal, turned into a big move. While vacationing, I ended up...
Sometimes you just need to stop giving a f*ck what people think!!
Life’s a trip..
Remain calm, cool, collected.
One step back = Two steps back. One step forward = Half step forward.
Sometimes you have to take a step back to look at the bigger picture.
“B*tch, it’s called SELF-esteem! It’s the esteem of you mutha-f*ckin’ SELF!”-Katt Williams
Only YOU are guaranteed. Invest in yourself!
Some things are better left unsaid and unknown. Explanations = Excuses. Unnecessary. Save it!
Shut Up & Just Live
Brick walls are there to see how badly you want it! Keep pushing, knock it down, jump/climb over it, take another route.. do whatever it takes (with goodness of course), just get there!
Sometimes not knowing is satisfying enough. “Ya never know..”
Sometimes explanining yourself is a waste of time and energy. You just have teach them a lesson and show them how it feels.
Sometimes having a back-up plan is much needed.
Let people believe whatever they want to believe (because they will regardless). As long as you know the truth, that’s all that really matters.
When all else fails, put on “the shoes” and express yourself.. embrace your femininity.. It’s liberating!
You can’t expect something good to come out of it, when it was all bad to begin with.
A few weeks ago, I celebrated my 25th birthday. I had a freakin’ blast to say the least.. a lil’ mishaps here and there, but hey.. what’s life without a few bumps in the road. I stand today, on brand new slate.. ready to build my foundation once again from the ground up, yet this time with a clearer vision, better tools, skills, wisdom, courage, strength.. I am determined and...
* Learn how to play the piano.. cords/tabs. * Take boxing lessons.. for fun! * Exercise regularly.. run.. stay active! * Clubbin’ only occasionally.. relearn to have sober fun. One drink max, which is reasonable. * Continue working for the company, yet at the same time look for a full-time Human Services county/state job. * Build a stronger relationship with God.. have faith in the...